June 2, 2010

Well I am going to bitch about my car problems now. I have an 03 ford. I have been through three sets of brakes, numerous tires and an ignition. I have needed shocks for the longest time. I need more tires. I also have to get an oxygen sensor. I come to find out that there are four sensors on my car. There are two in the front and two in the back. So I have to figure out which one I need. The ones in the front cost 66 and the ones in the back cost 99 (a piece) so I am hoping that I only have to get one for the front.

I am also going today to get Spot’s ashes. I need to have him here at home with me and Jake. I feel so wrong not having my boys with me. It was the best 9.5 years of my life with  them. People keep telling me that I need to get indoor cats.I tell them I want my boys back. I also am not ready for any more fuzzy friends just yet. Well I gotta go for now.


Trying again

May 29, 2010

So I have lost both my boys in 7 moths. I honestly think the past year has been the worst for me. My boys were taken too soon and my moms cancer returned. It has spread to her liver and lung. The financial bull shit that is going on doesnt help either. I am really thinking whats the point. Then again I still have my kids. Who are now 12 and 11. Oh m god where has the time gone? I cant believe its been that long. There are also problems there as well. I’m sure any mother knows the kinds of problems I got. My son I can’t really believe anything he says and my daughter thinks she is a lot older than she really is. Oh yeah the other grandmother also has got cancer in her throat. Talk about a great year. facebook. If ou have a facebook you can find me here.

Wow I’ve been gone too long

January 9, 2009

I just want to come back and try to get a new start at the blogging world. I have thought about my friends everyday and miss them all so much. I have barely been on a computer at all and in deep depression. I am hopefully starting to come out of it. There has been so much going on. I will let it all out, slowly but surely. For the most part I just wanted to make a start.

I hope every one had a great holiday season and has a wonderful new year. I have not forgotten any of my friends.

Need help please

March 14, 2008

I have  a friend who wants to remain nameless, but is in a world of difficulties. I know now there are people having diffuclty. I want to set up a collection and ask for donations. There is the problem of some people do not get along with my friend. I also have no paypal account. I so desperately want to help out. I see life is hard on a lot of people but I am going to ask for some donations. My friend has no money, no job, no food, no local friends, no family, and the transportation was taken.. Please if anyone can help my friend let me know.

Got a job

February 19, 2008

Ok so it has been a really long time since I have been here. I have been having lots of problems. I can no longer post on most pages anymore. I would love to know hw to solve that problem. I can not get a blogger account for some reason. So when I can get on line I see the posts but can not comment. There is another problem I can not always get on line. I have been in a really deep depression for the past few months. I am still trying to get out. I have been to councelig and we are doing this thing called E M D R. Something abut eye movement something. I have been wrking for almost a week and seem to not be able to get the sleep I need. I go to bed early wake up two or three times a night and after work all I want to do is sleep. Example last night I was sleeping before 9. I woke at 12:30, 3:30, 6:00 my alarm went off at 7 and I got up at 7:30. Tell me thats not f-ed up. Then after work took a nap for 1.5 hours. I’m gonna go to bed as soon as I am done here. Well about the job. I work at a hotel that is not open yet. Its called the Hampton inn. It is in the family of the Hilton hotels. I am working in the laundry so it isnot too tiring. I have been working 9-4 and when they open it will be 9-5. So the kids have been learning how to be hme by themselves for all of (at the most) an hour. This is good. They seem to be doing fine. Except this week was or is vacation so I had to find sitters and I got all days covered. Today was only half a day. Well  am starting to get a headache. I just wanted to check in and say to all my friends…… I MISS ALL OF YOU ,  I HATE BEING OUT….NOT CONNECTED.  I can’t wait til I can get out of this funk and get back into the swing of things. I feel so out of it.


November 26, 2007

Ok so I have not been doing anything for about 3 months now. I have been having some problems getting out of bed to get myself motivated. I have also been having lots of leg pain. I was talking to my mom ans she is telling me that that is how she found out she has gout. So I am going to ask a doctor about getting a blood test done. Well on the other hand Thanksgiving was greaqt. There were no complications with the family. Everyone got along surprise surprise. That was really cool I was happy about that. I am sure everyone else was to. Things are going well with Todd. Its kinda a weird thing. Not bad but weird.Oh I almst forgot I have to tell this to you. Our cat gabriel ran away back in May. Well my mom had a dream she came home (at about 5am) well I am upstairs at about 5pm my kids are utside playing. My mom screams fmy name. I thought for sure she was going to say one of the kids was injured. I jumped up and ran downstairs expecting to see a bloody kid. I get  down there and she tells me that Gbby cam home. Oh my god I think that was the best thing that could have happened to this family at the time. Gabriel is my mom’s most favorite cat. I guess that was a vision and not a dream. She said they way it really happened was the same as the way in the dream. So now everyone (cat) is all weird. She hisses and growls at everyone, everyone sniffs her trying to find out who she is and where she was. Can you believe she came back after 6 months. That is awesome. jake and spot have been real cute as well. I think I will let them tell you. They will be making posts in the next day or two. Well I am gonna go for now I will talk to you all soon. Have a great day.Gabby

Can not forget this man Jazz man He is celebrating his one year gotcha day. (Nov. 25) A little late sorry.dsc00015.jpg


October 20, 2007

Wow I didn’t realize how long it has been since I made a post. There has been a lot going on. I don’t even know where to start. I guess I can start here. I have been doing this thing with my councelor called “emdr”  It has to do with eye movement and the process of everything in the brain. We have only done that a couple times and she says I am doing really good. I have been out of work for a while and some days it goes by really fast and others the days just seem to drag on and on. I want to say to Kat that I am very happy about the new baby. CONGRATULATIONS to you and your family. I know it is a little late but I have been just having so much going on. Some good but mostly bad. Well maybe not bad but not what I want and certainly not good. Well I have a busy day today so I will leave you with that. Have a great day. I will try to be back soon.