Ok so it has been a really long time since I have been here. I have been having lots of problems. I can no longer post on most pages anymore. I would love to know hw to solve that problem. I can not get a blogger account for some reason. So when I can get on line I see the posts but can not comment. There is another problem I can not always get on line. I have been in a really deep depression for the past few months. I am still trying to get out. I have been to councelig and we are doing this thing called E M D R. Something abut eye movement something. I have been wrking for almost a week and seem to not be able to get the sleep I need. I go to bed early wake up two or three times a night and after work all I want to do is sleep. Example last night I was sleeping before 9. I woke at 12:30, 3:30, 6:00 my alarm went off at 7 and I got up at 7:30. Tell me thats not f-ed up. Then after work took a nap for 1.5 hours. I’m gonna go to bed as soon as I am done here. Well about the job. I work at a hotel that is not open yet. Its called the Hampton inn. It is in the family of the Hilton hotels. I am working in the laundry so it isnot too tiring. I have been working 9-4 and when they open it will be 9-5. So the kids have been learning how to be hme by themselves for all of (at the most) an hour. This is good. They seem to be doing fine. Except this week was or is vacation so I had to find sitters and I got all days covered. Today was only half a day. Well am starting to get a headache. I just wanted to check in and say to all my friends…… I MISS ALL OF YOU , I HATE BEING OUT….NOT CONNECTED. I can’t wait til I can get out of this funk and get back into the swing of things. I feel so out of it.