Today I can not stop the tears. Todd decided he didn’t want to continue to do what we were doing. I woke this morning and started taking it out on my kids. I feel like a horrible person. I would love nothing more than to end this shitty life. I know that just because a relationship is over doesn’t mean its the end of the world. When I was with him it was the best time in my life EVER and now its done. He always said that he didn’t want a relationship and that he was not ready. I knew all of this from the get go. I just wish I did not go and fall in love with him. There is so much going on in this head of mine. I wish I could just become like a stone and have no emotion what so ever. At least that way it would not affect the kids too much. I don’t know how to deal with the emotions. I am going to be taking a break for a while. I don’t know when I will be back. Have a great day.