I want to say thank you to those who sent get better soon. I am feeling a bit better today. I am here at work and have not been on the computer since yesterday when I wrote my last post. I feel like I have missed so much. Even though it has only been a day. I have heard that Yuki is not feeling well. I want everyone to go to the blog and wish well for her and her family. Since I did not work yesterday I got to go to an AA meeting. I have been doing a lot of those lately. I did two on Fri and Sat. I went Sunday (which never happens) I went to a 52nd anniversary party on Monday. That was a blast. So I am doing a lot more which I am really happy about. I still have yet to talk to my family about the things that have happened. I think I have to wait until I am a little more emotionally stable. I got cornered into the bathroom by a friend and she helped make things a little more understandable to me. I was also talking to a friend of mine last night and she helped put things into perspective for me. There are 12 steps in the program and I have only made it to number three. I am trying to start all over. I want to do the steps and help myslef. I have never really cared for myself and doing this might help me. I have also been helped by my fuzz family. I know there are so many people that care for me and I think to myself “if there are so many whycan’t I feel the same” well the words might not come out exactly how I feel but that is the basic jist of it. I am in all actuality an angry person and that is a character defect which I need to work on. I don’t like being an angry person all the time. I feel like I am leeding a double life in some way. I want to lead myself to the not so angry side of me. I want to be that person all the time. I feel that sometimes that is the way it is supposed to be. Like I said I am going to be working a program and I hope all will change. Have a great day.
Feelin a bit better