Well lets see. I was nominated for food lady of the yeer award. I was so no expecting that at all. I can’t believe it. I had tears in my eyes. I am the type of person that feels that something like this is not what I deserve. I just have always had a low self esteem. I feel what I have done for the kitties and their new families is just some natural thing to do. I don’t feel like I did anything special or out of the ordinary.I think that I maybe feel guilty. I know I feel guilty.For many reasons. The most important one is that there are so many more animals that need help. I just wish I could do more, I don’t feel as though I have done enough. I have been told that I have done a lot so far. I could not have done any of this without the help of my on line family, none of it would be possible without you. So I might have done a lot but would have been nothing with out you.
Now to get a little venting out. Joe called again last night and left me a message, he only called once. He was saying he wants me to call him just hear my voice. He also was asking if I would give him rides to meetings (so he can be with me) also that he doesn’t want to get in trouble for calling me. I am not sure what to do. As a good member of A.A. I probably should give him a ride but that might not work out too well.I have told him I want him to get a year sober before anything happens if it would happen. I have also tried to tell him things and before I finish he tells me he doesn’t believe me. He doesn’t trust anyone and tells me he doesn’t believe me. I do not trust or believe him either (so how can there be a relationship without those things?) There is also the aspect of him being controlling and a super neat freak, I do not really want any part of that. I don’t think he really gets it. That is not something the kids should ever have to deal with, ,and that is extremely important to me. I could not see it before and others tried to tell me. I see it now though.
Ok a better subject. I am putting up some pictures of Clay/Kelly. I will try and get the one of him/her after the bath. I will also get just chillin in the room. I have a V-E-T appt for thursday night. We will finally be able to say for sure Clay or Kelly. I have to also mention that he/she LOVES to sleep on my phone especially in the morning when it (the alarm on it) goes off. So I have been getting up a little later than I would like. Only cause I can not hear the alarm well or find the phone. Well I will leave you with that. Oh I almost forgot he/she LOVES diet coke.